Ldsgirl12

Thank you

I am new to this forum. I joined in search of help. I grew up Lds and love the church with all my heart. I got married about 18 months ago. We dated on and off for over 7 years. I was almost 30 when we married because I wanted to be married in the temple and was willing to wait for that. Almost immediately after our marriage. I learned to my horror that my husband has no testimony of the gospel. He stopped wearing his garments and stopped going to church. I recently learned that he is actively searching anti Mormon websites and studying their materials. He has some serious doctrinal questions and I feel like he is really searching for truth but going about it the wrong way. I try to talk to him but we end up fighting. I have talked to my bishop and stake president and all they tell me is to give it time and pray for him. I am so sad. We found out we have a baby on the way but this is not the kind of life I envisaged for myself. I go to church by myself and I cry almost every Sunday. He is a good man otherwise and we have a lot of fun together but I am scared of what a life where we never study the scriptures together, where my husband cannot give me blessings will bring. How will we raise our child? I have thought of divorce many times. I don't know what to do. Has anyone being in the same situation? Please help.