Tay358

Thank you very much. I have been thinking about seeing someone. I appreciate all of your advice. Best Wishes.

Thank you for your advice! I really appreciate it. I guess I don't know what is the matter with me. I have confessed and repented. I think that anytime I feel anxiety I automatically think that I must need to confess something, or that I have done something wrong. I am automatically a guilty person and extremely unforgiving of myself. I just want my mind to stop being out of control. When I think of how my Savior really is, I feel that he is so quick to forgive and so understanding. I guess I sometimes feel that it is too go to be true and that it can't be that simple; therefore, I over complicate it all. I figure he looks at who I am now and how I live and he doesn't hold on to the little details that I might occasionally remember. I let myself be full of fear far too often. Before I got married, the stake president asked me " When was your last experience with pornography and MB and I was able to tell him it was years ago, and he assured me that I was ok and can go through the temple confidently. I would assume that if something else was amiss that he would have been able to discern and I would have had something come to mind, but I didn't. I guess I just need to have faith....

Well, I have confessed that I tampered with pornography and had a problem with MB multiple times, and always felt better. You bring up the child pornography issue and I am trying to remember and I do remember that I went to a website once for a couple of minutes and the girls did seem pretty young, like they were teenagers... did I look at child porn? I sure hope not. All this was years and years ago. I would assume that, that stuff is illegal and I probably wouldn't just run into it.... I would never seek out after that stuff when I was young, and I would never seek after any type now.

When I was younger I had a problem with MB and I would tamper with pornography on occasion, but really not a lot. I got that stuff out of my life and I felt so good and confident. I later confessed those things to a church authority. I honestly did not know that I needed to confess those things in order to be completely forgiven. Since then I seem to be afraid and feel like I need to confess everything I do wrong because I want to make sure that I am forgiven. My biggest fear is to go on living my life thinking I am ok when really I am not, like I was doing. My mind seems to constantly be trying to find everything I ever did wrong and I am going crazy. I am just wondering if Bishops need a lot of detail about those types of sin. I did some weird things when I was young that are really just details of those sins and I am just wondering if those need to be talked about. What do you think?