I'm considering joining the LDS Church and have been reading about the Church on and off for the past few weeks, so it is all still new to me. One of the ideas that sound strange to me is the whole prophecy thing, specifically in the WoW. I won't lie, I love my coffee drinks so I'm sure that's part of my motivation here's but Im having a hard time with the "no hot drinks" thing. First if all I fail to see that rationalization behind it. More importantly though, i struggle with accepting it (and the Wow as a whole) because it seems to me that it was one guy's idea of things and then he decided to make it law by saying it was a prophecy from the Lord.
When reading I came across something that stated Joseph Smith amd Emma were tired of having to clean up after the men who would chew and smoke tobacco so Joseph decided to have a rule against it. And later Joesph has a prophecy that upheld that decree. Well gosh, how convenient. Now the Lord bans it too. I don't know, it just seems all too self serving- which is how I feel about much of what Joseph Smith did.
Before anyone jumps all over me I will admit, I have been reading on anti sites. I also have been reading here and on other pro-Mormon sites. I can accept that Joseph Smith was a man, thus flawed at times. However, I just don't know if I can believe much or anything really, because it seems like Joseph Smith (and other church leaders) would use a testimony from God as a way to get what they wanted. The WoW, Kirtland bank scandal, polygamy?, maybe even Joseph's testimony in the first place? I'm just not sure. It seems all too easy to say that "God told me so".
The thing is though, I want to believe. I want to find a way for all of this to be explained. I feel very strongly that the LDS Church will save my family. I feel this so strongly that I'm almost at the point of saying none of this details matter because; the Church does good, will being me closer to God, cause us to act more Christ like, will save my husband and our marriage, and will strengthen our family. Those things mean more to me than the specifics of what Joseph Smith did, or how he did them. But then I get this nagging feeling. I want answers. I want this to all be explained so that I can wrap it all up neatly not only to appease myself, but the countless friends and family whom i expect we will take heavy criticism from.
Thanks in advance for your advice, I really appreciate it!