[The Kolob Theorem: A Mormon's View of God's Starry Universe]

I believe that it was Orson Hyde that went to the Prophet Joseph Smith and asserted that he had figured-out how "it" all worked. He proceeded to expound his thesis to Joseph for about three hours. At the end of his discourse, Joseph said, "Bro. Hyde, that is the most logical and beautiful explanation that I've ever heard. There is only one problem, . . . it is wrong." So we don't know. However, there will come a time that we WILL know. I believe that the truth will be so simple, so plain, that we'll think "why didn't I think of that?" Until that time, we can conjecture and theorize, but we must remember that "it's WRONG."

[Recovering from Satanism]

Pray, . . . pray . . . and then . . . pray! There are counselors that deal with this type of issue. Seek them out. Check with LDS Social Services, they will have someone to help you, or can direct you to someone who can. Your Bishop, Stake President. Seek out their help.