Please give me your opinion on my situation.
My wife and I got married 2 years ago and have a 1 year old baby. We did not get married in the temple because she was sealed to her ex. Needless to say we could not wait and got married and worked on getting her sealing cancelled. It has now been cancelled. Over the past 6 months she has no desire to attend church. I grew up in the church and she is a convert. She has become almost anti mormon.
That is problem number one.
I know I can work with her and help her desires but I want to be sealed in the temple, especially to my child.
Problem 2 my biiiiig issue.
When we were dating I would inquire with her about her sexual past because she was a convert. She did not want to talk about it. She said that it does not matter and we love each other now. I continued to press and she said she would explain after we got married (should have been my first sign). I was in Love and thought she has been married and probably been with a couple other guys.
I have come to learn she has been with over 100 men, stripped as a pole dancer, been with women, been a swinger.
I do not see any of this in her. She is a great Mom and seems so nice. But it is killing my heart and my Respect for her. I want to leave and run away so fast. I just do not understand how she could not tell me before we got married. I lost my opinion on this. I could have dealt with it and decided if I still wanted to be with her. Instead I am now stuck and I feel like she misrepresented herself.
I have lost my desire for her and even treat her mean because her past is always on my mind. I have had so many sleepless nights.
What do you think?
