jsherwood76

Hi. I wanted to introduce myself. My name is Jonathan and I am a member of the Church but have been away a long time (see other post in general discussion). I found this site on accident in searching for some information and would be glad to be a part of the discussion and get to know you all better.

I appreciate the advice. Small steps are important I think at this time. When my wife initially balked at the idea of me going to Church, I was very clear that she did not have to participate....that this was something I was considering. That seemed to ease her concerns a bit. She is still a bit concerned but for her it primarily is a trust issue with religion and not the Church specifically. I knew going back would be hard because of that element alone, let alone my own baggage I have to deal with.

I do....I have a 9 year old son. And if that happened I would be overjoyed at him coming back to me. Thank you for the excellent point to consider.

Thank you. I have definitely started reading the scriptures again. Reading far more carefully and thoughtfully than I did when I was younger. I know that I need to start praying. Imagine hanging up on someone on the phone in mid-conversation and then years later wanting to call that person back. That's a hard call to make, and even harder in this situation. I am embarassed for myself and know that will be a hard step for me but I know I need to do it.

Hi everyone. My name is Jonathan and I am 37 years old. When I was 19 years old I joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints in Nevada. I was an active member and believed in the gospel. Unfortunately for me, for selfish reasons I turned away from the Church when I was 20. I thought the Lord had left me, and again, it was selfish on my part. Looking at it in hindsight I was acting like a child. I then joined the Army and served for four years before pursuing college studies and starting my family and career. Now, 17 years later, I am working through a number of personal issues and working to re-find my religious compass as well. However, it is not easy. Finding the Spirit again after so long away has been a difficult process and my support base is very minimal. My spouse is not religious at all and distrusts organized religions, so she has met with my decision to consider this with a bit of hesitation at the least. I also know the sin I have done over the years and know I am not the same as I was at the age of 19. I'm not sure the Lord wants me back. How do I close that gap? How do I repent for things I have done and be worthy in the eyes of the Lord again? I truly have a desire to come back but feel so lost in this process and again, I don't have anyone I can really talk to about this. Any thoughts would be appreciated.