Recently a the leadership of a ward made a mistake that affected the way my life now functions. The mistake was caught and was not done on purpose and they ward tried to do what they could and eventually had to get the the stake leadership involved as they attempted to remedy the situation but the damage was already done.
I was born Mormon, grew up Mormon. Thought I knew what to expect from church leadership and have had a rude awakening that things are not the same in the church as you are taught. I have heard just as everyone else that the message the church gives, the religion is true and that the members can make mistakes. It isn't helping thou.
The changes that have happened in my life because of a mistake that happened over a few days is eroding at me badly. I see corruption in a lot of places in the church now and yes I know it is because I am looking for it now that I have seen what can go wrong.
Too me it seems like the days have returned when Joseph Smith was seeking answers originally when the many religions that existed before the first vision where causing conflict in himself.
I am so lost now on this whole matter. Some of you may say prayer and I have tried that and it doesn't seem to be working, may be because I am in a dark place and am not listening or don't trust even God at the moment after what happened.
What am I supposed to do?
