Seashell2014

I have a couple friends and know a couple people in the ward. Im not really sure what you mean.

Skippy, no you're right I did marry him as a non member so in that respect I am the one who has changed what I want. Being sealed as a family has become something I want and I want to be sealed to my children. We have seen several counselors but it only lasts a session or two and then he won't go back. I don't want sympathy. I am more tired of the yelling and name calling. My oldest daughter gets really upset when goes off on me.

My husband will have been together for ten years as of May this year, married for eight as of January 2014. We have two kids together and my oldest is from a previous marriage. So three total. I was raised in the church but became inactive for a while and got married, then divorced, then remarried to my husband. Things were good for a while. Then we had some problems in 2008 and we both were unfaithful. It was something we decided to work through though and we stayed together. I started going back to church about a year after that and because of church among other things I was going to leave him but I found out I was pregnant with our son. That was 2010. We still argue about money, church, lots of stuff. He yells at me, puts me down and just generally doesn't respect me. He has been a truck driver since 2009 so he is never home but when he is he wants things a certain way and doesn't want to do anything. His weight has gotten out of control and he now weighs about 500 pounds. I can't get through to him to do anything about that either. So things in the bedroom aren't exactly great as well. We have always lived in the city, but over the years he has spent a lot of money on hunting and now he wants to move to the middle of nowhere so he can buy hunting property. I don't want to, his whole family is from a small town, but I like it here. I am sure I have my faults as well, but it makes me wonder if we are even right for each other at all. He has made it clear he has no intention of ever joining the church and he has only ever shown up for my oldest daughters baptism and our sons birth announcement and blessing. I am sad and frustrated because I feel like I am just prolonging the inevitable and putting my kids through a bad example of what marriage should be. I have been given blessings and continue to try and talk with the bishop, but I know in the end I am just going to have to make a choice. It makes it hard to do that though because ever time I get frustrated enough to start getting ready to leave he starts being nice. Just long enough till things level out, then he goes back to the way he was. Just wondered if anyone had a similar situation.