Hey Jia, just wanted to say hang in there i was inactive for over three years had a child, came back on and off for the same reasons, talked to my bishop a few times when he prompted us that he feels we should get married, did that had another child things were goin so bad financially, emotionally everything was just ahhhhhh then i talked to my bestfriend in oz who is a convert and now a temple patron and she gave me councel that if i truely believe then it will be okay. To pay my tithing when i can cos that is one of the first baby steps...i paid my tithing and miracle my financial troubles didnt seem so big anymore....i had finished work and the burden was left to my husband while i had my two little ones even tho we struggled we still got thru eachweek and it was okay...we were renting and paying bills and more bills but I always had a confidence in myself that everything was always gonna be okay if i just stayed strong in my beliefs and paid my tithing. I eventually came back to church and got called straight into sunbeams which has been just over a year now!!! I pay my tithing i go to the temple i love my children, our bills are getn there and we are coping alot better and yup my husband has been making a comeback to church which is such a even greater blessing :) i always made excuses not to go to church because i was exhausted, my husband worked or needed me we were sick or something always came up and in the end i suffered terribly, im not sayn im without problems now but i am so much happier and more stable than i have ever been, i have a peacefulness in my heart where it used to be filled with anxiety about how im goin to get by eachweek. i dont know if that helps but lean on those around u, councel with the lord, and take baby steps to go back to church, and yes the church is there to help those in need even the less active ones, believe me u should have seen the love that was shared with me when i was down in my lowest.....heavenly father blesses us with amazing friends around us that we have yet to meet...trust in him and you and your husband will be okay :) sorry its so long but i have a tendency to just type like im talking :) always...Joey...I am in the NewZealand Huntly Ward :)
