Ivory_Tower

Hello, everyone. I am new to this forum. I am writing, because I don't really know what to do, and don't really know, wether anyone understands me. The thing is, I feel really different from everyone at church. I am 32, unmarried, european living in a bis asian city, enrolled in a phD Program for fine arts. These details already sums up why I feel different from everyone. When I go to church, I feel like I don't have anything in common with anyone else. I have different interests, different hobbies, ect. Also, I find it annoying, how people sometimes bug me about not beeing married. a few weeks ago a guy in my church ward wanted me to go on a date with one of his friends, and his behaviour was so bunt and impolite, he was talking to me as if I was a piece of meat on a meat market, and as if he was doing me a favour by offering me a date with his friend. Of course, I didn't go, because the blunt ad impolite behaviour of this guy really really really annoyed me. ( and, as I am describing below, I DO NOT have the time for random dates) I think people don't really understand, what I am doing. I live in a totally different world from everyone else. I am very busy with 3 side jobs, my phD paper(which I have to write in this foreign asian language, which is difficult enough), participating in exhbitions, making new works, teaching a class at church twice a month in a foreign language, ect. I usually feel, like my head is about to explode. There is too much pressure on me, because I have to submit my Phd Paper in a few months already....... On sundays I am so tired, I am dragging myself there, feeling so tired and uncomfortable, sick of the same superficial smalltalk. I guess everybody is tired when they go to church, and everybody has their problems. But my problems are different from the ones of everyone else. I guess there is no real advice. I just want to rant.