Hi,
I'm 34 and have for a couple years now been interested in becoming Mormon. It's just I never had a strong gut instinct about it.
I have been lost in my beliefs for sometime I ended a decade long relationship two years ago and in that relationship I turned my back on God. My ex and I both have serious mental health issues. I figured God had punished us both so why worship him? Ignorant and false thinking at the time. I basically didn't deem myself worthy enough in the Lords eyes. The lord loves us all and he doesn't make trash, he chose us all to be on earth for a purpose.
Towards the the end of that relationship I joined a church but didn't feel my place in the Congregational church. I was raised Congregational Christian. My brothers were also best friends with Mormon brothers. My mom has friends who are Mormon. So my parents know all about the Faith. So as I kept exploring different churches, from Presbyterian and Lutheran I still didn't feel right.
Well I have done a lot of transgressions regarding not being chaise. I also still live at home and on Disability. I also have had a Hysterectomy due to nessecary medical issues at 31 and have no Children. I felt that the Mormon Church wouldn't accept me. That a Mormon guy would not accept me.
So I gave up on the idea and started to date an Agnostic guy. Well it was when I was looking at this beautiful cross I saved money to purchase because I always wanted a really nice cross, something to last a lifetime. As I was looking at it, I realized I wasn't being true to my inner core.
So I ended the dating with the guy. Told my parents last night I am strongly considering becoming Mormon. They were taken aback a bit but equally not as surprised knowing I had discussed this on and off before.
Last night I had I'm not sure if it was a Testimony to join this Faith or just a dream, but it was a powerful message from the Lord that this is where I belong. To wash away my sins by being baptized and come into this Faith to reach and be close to Jesus Christ.
I woke up awakened and anew feeling this gut instinct now leading me into this path very strongly.
This is where God wants me to be!
I have questions about how to get started.
Do I go to the church or call them up?
Tell them my testimony to join the faith?
Does it matter if I can't bring unborn souls into this world?
i know there is a lot to this and I'm ready to make all the right steps.
thank you,
Lisa
