Peyton2309

Thank you very much guys, as always I'm grateful.

Thank you very much guys. I appreciate it very much. I guess I'm trying to figure out how this helps... does it draw you closer to God, help you overcome hurdles that stop your spirutal growth? I feel so at peace with going, it's been a real blessing to know how inspired my bishop was.

If you had seen my other post (in which I received amazing support) I ended up going to see my bishop and explaining a lot to him about my faults and shortcomings and how I felt in general. This week he asked to meet with me and said "I've been praying so much and Heavenly Father keeps telling me you need counselling". I guess God really wants to heal me from the inside. He's been trying but there is something there and I can't get rid of it. It's not big or a sin or anything... probably just a lot of childhood things. Anyway, has anyone ever done this? And how does it work? Also does anyone know how much it currently costs when the bishop is referring you? Much love, brothers and sisters xxx

Thank you all for the support and help. I've done some thinking and found the answers to some of the problems I've been having. Hoping to see what Christ does with me now

Thanks so much for the advice. It's really helped me to see a few things and problem. Firstly, I guess the question on my mind at the moment is... Do I want to be a chriatian or do i just like the idea of it? And actually I think that's why I'm so up and down.

My family aren't members, it's just me. When I can I read a general conference talk here and there. Most of the time they have people over or want to do stuff.

Hey , thanks for the advice. Yes, we only have institute on 2 nights a week and guess what? I have class! Literally it's my biggest pet peeve that I always miss out. I have got my recommend, but the temple is 2 hours away. I think I'll try and make time to go, it's been a while and thanks for the book suggestion , I check it out.

No not at all! I feel trapped in the calling I'm in and very isolated overall. I haven't been for 3 weeks because I don't have any friends there and I feel like when I go I just want to spend 3 hours getting closer to the saviour, not telling children to sit down and listen (which I do 5 days of the week due to my work). My visiting teacher doesn't really engage, we used to be a group of friends until a couple of the others moved away and she had a baby, so home is the focus. I don't have home teachers and I just feel isolated in the ward. If I could say going for 3 hours gives me a chance to spend time with God, then at least that would be a purpose to go, but I can't even do that.

Any advice from people who have gone through this or have anything to say: So I've been a member of the church for 3 now after attending church on my own after having read about it. I LOVED IT! Since then I've been on this on and off journey and I'm just feeling fed up and slightly conflicted. My on and off, what I mean is that I go through periods of really reading and praying, holding my garments sacred and just really emerged in the gospel and in church. Then... it's all downhill. Work or feelings just take over and it's not like I'm angry or cross, I just feel like I get sidetracked; stop wearing the garment because they are hard to wear with my work inform; I get distracted and life carries on. I guess a lot of people are thinking "well, there you go, she's not doing what she's meant to" but seriously... it's more than that. Even with dedicated weeks, it all comes crashing down and often I feel a bit suffocated. Right now, my ward has no YSA, so I don't have any friends in the church. I don't have any home teachers as they still haven't been assigned and im a teacher for the youth. I miss just going to church to learn about God and Christ and using the 3 hours for myself (as shellfish as that sounds), but even then, I'm sure it would be up and down within a month or 2. I've tried so hard to work out what gets in the way, what makes it so easy to treat my faith and the gospel like a light switch and I can't put my finger on it. I'm trying to decide if it's worth going back because I'm always so defeated. I know the atonement gives us chances to change and get better. But I'm asking myself whether or not this is what I genuinely want. I do go back, but as I said... it's that wave. Has anyone else experienced this? Do you have any suggestions or starting points? Thanks, The tired surfer