Lupine

For sure it's physical pain, too. Somewhere there was a medical article about that but please don't ask me to cite it. :-) Regardless, the emotional pain of realizing revelation was only one-sided is even worse after 4 years of widowhood, and your first marriage had been a rocky road due to spouse's serious mental illness (requiring a lot of patience on my part). I was definitely blindsided by this recent rejection because God did tell me in the temple he was the one this time. I always thought the Holy Ghost spoke the truth without overriding freedom of choice, but I'm told by others my former friend has "a few problems". I wonder why I was about to make the same mistake again. Perhaps I'm still naive after all these years. I finally decided two people have to be on the same spiritual wavelength to receive the same direction from God. Topics, including church attendance, have to be important to both of you to a very similar degree.