I've been dating this girl now for 3 months and she is amazing. Everyday I grow more and more fond of her and eventhough I shouldn't be thinking of things like this so early in the relationship I find myself daydreaming and planning and wondering about a future with her.
Here is my problem, she's mormon and I'm not. I should clarify even further; She is religious and I'm not. I'm not even sure what I beleive actually...I wasn't really 'raised christian' as I see a lot of people say, my parents were not very religious. Yes, we prayed at the dinner table before we ate and on holidays but it was more of like a routine. I attended church only when I stayed over night at my cousin's house on saturday sometimes (his immediate family was alot more religious and my cousin and I were attached at the hip pretty much so I would go along) so I'm not unfamilair with church, although I was just kind of going through the motions.
On the other hand from what I know of her family they are far more religious than even my cousins. But she doesn't go to service that much, and when I looked on lds.org to try and learn a little about it...she doesn't follow alot of the rules. And sometimes she doesn't really seem that enthusiastic about being a mormon with some things that she says. But I have noticed that her family is really close...and I don't know what would happen if we married with me not being a mormon. I wouldn't want to ruin that closeness she has with her family even if she would marry me w/o me being mormon. And if her faith is maybe weak right now I wouldn't want for me to be a reason for her to leave the church, and I also feel guilty when we do things that are sin... I don't want her to lose faith honestly because I know how powerful it can be for people...I actually envy it sometimes
I have been thinking of possibly attempting to join. There are parts of my life that I barely survived through, rough times, and I fear that if even worse times come I won't be able to make it through them without faith. But I don't want her to be the only reason that I'm joining the church. And I have this weird idea in my head that maybe she likes things that are non-mormon and if I joined would she like me less? I think maybe I should maybe try and talk to a missionary on my own...or should I tell her first? I'm so confused right now...but I have been checking this forum alot, and everyday I have been scanning the internet on information about LDS and I get this excited feeling in me whenever I do...kinda like this feeling I used to get as a child when I would pray. before I lost faith