Starberry

yeah and we had a 4.5 here in utah a couple of days ago, still waiting for the big one though. I've allways been taught to look and listen for signs. I wish other people would pay more attention and not fear it. And just because all these disasters are happening shouldn't make us stop our lives. You should ive your life the same way you would if you had 100 years to live, even if you know you are going to die soon. The lord does not want us to lay on the groud and give up.

Oh thanks! This helps a lot! I just tried it on my own, i get it now :) Thanks for the help it will be a lot easier for me to understand the scriptures now. ha ha.

So, as far as those foot notes that are at the bottom of the scriptures, how do you use those? And how do you find a cross reference toa scripture? Where does it show where the cross reference is? I just don't understand what those footnotes are at the bottom or what they mean or how to use them. Soooo confusing.

Oh my gosh! lds999 I am a fan of your videos! I watch them every time they come out. Keep it up. I'm Starya7 on youtube :) Great video by the way :)

Okay good I'm not confused anymore. That feels so nice. Thanks for the help!

Oh that makes sense. So we do not worship jesus. we worship only God but we worship God in the name of jesus? This is making more sense now.

Oh so we are not nessicarily worshipping Christ just worshipping God in his name?

So we don't worship jesus we just follow his teachings?

Okay so it says we are only to worship one God. Yet Jesus and God are 2 different beings. If we are supposed to worship jesus and worship God isn't that like worshipping 2 Gods? I'm really confused about how this stuff works. I do not understand it.

So I've never really listened in church, never even read the book of mormon, and now I'm starting to doubt wether or not it is worth it to go to church at all. I also have a few sexual addictions, and I am very anti-social. I hate visiting teaching, I find talks corney, I say my prayers half heartedly, etc. I won't be able to fix any of my major issues unless I can find a way to become stronger in the gospel, and get closer to god. I've been thinking about these problems for a while. Nothing seems to get to me. I don't know why I have this idea, but a few minutes ago i had this idea come to me. Maybe I should just start over, maybe I should treat myself like a new investigator, I think I've gotten far enough off the road that I might need to start from scratch. But I don't even know where to start. So I need some answers, some advice. Where DO I start? How does anyone start? also recommend some books, and/ or magazines, or talks that I might want to read. or music, stuff like that, while i'm going about this trackback.

I'm glad I asked, looks like my instincts were correct.

If I see someone bashing the LDS faith, or spreading falsehood about jesus, should I try to defend it or just keep away from it? This is what confuses me, I know that I'll neer really change most of their minds but I just dont know what to do when I come into this situation. I'm a heavy internet surfer and I spend hors on it and I see a lot of crap about our religion, and / or jesus. Sometimes I feel like I should defend it and sometimes I feel like I should just keep away, get away from it as soon as possible. Is it more harm than good to defend what I believe in on the internet? I know just reading someones anti-mormom thoughts can have bad cnsequences but I just get so angry and disturbed when I read stuff like that.

I really liked your advice, I think it will help me a lot. and yeah I do have self esteem issues. and i have hygene issues, and mind issues, I just plain have a lot of problems. I thought I was doing good, I thought I was doing good enough, until 2 years ago when I started admitting my faults.when it comes to these problems I just find myself lost and confused. I've allways been in darkness ever since I can remember, allways had trouble thinking about good things, and keeping alll the bad stuff out. Even as a child I would think of stuff and fantasize about stuff that would make other people feel sick to their stomach. I've allways sturuggled with everything, school, friends, social life in general. I've allways avoided responsability whenever I could in any form, talks, schoolwork, callings, responsability in general i've ignored and disregarded all of them withou feeling a thing. I know this is bad. I'm really thankful I've never had to deal with peer preasure. and I've managed to avoid bad music almost altogether. I've been froze, stuck, in every sense of the word even in the physical. I dont think i'l be able to change in any sense until i can conquer these problems of mine, these issues.

I copied this off of another forum I go to. this should explain. I did make a topic a little like this one a long time ago on here, but i need to makea better one. I'm still in pretty big trouble. So almost my whole life I have struggled with addiction to sexual feeling. Masturbation in general. I started very young and didn't really know just how bad it was until 2 years ago when i asked some people in this LDS club i'm in on this one website I go to.. A few weeks later I went to the bishop for the first time. I have been seeing the bishop for almost 2 years now and I'm no better off than I was 2 years ago. I made a breakthrough for about 2 months not to long ago but I have had a major relapse into my old habits and I've even on occasion started to watch porn, mostly anime stuff (hentai). I just don't know how to stop, I have no friends and i dont make then easily I dont feel confortable around people i have never felt that great aroud people. I have lost every best friend or friend i've ever had so its become a turn off to get close to people or be around them in general. The only one that knows about this besides my bishop is my mom and she is allways at work. all my family members are allways at work or at school. I am usually at home with nothing else to do but go on the internet. I am very afraid of the outside, i have tried to go out so many times but i get so scared of everything. I have toldmy mom this but she just says that I need to get over it but its not that simple. I have never really been strong so far as spiritualy but i have allways gone t church , i usually miss the ward activities and such. I am really bad at saying prayers, I just don't know how to talk to god its so hard for me. I suppose I am afraid to get close to God and Jesus. It erally hard to admit that actually. I just dont know how to become stronger and overcome this addiction and m spiritual problems. I ALMOST have an addiction to porn as wel but i dont think i have quite gone over that line yet. I dont now what to do. If i slip that out to my bishop he might tell me to stay off the internet and i cant do that because its the only thng i have right now. its the only connection to the world i have, i feel so alone without it. I am soooo lost. Another post i made on another forum. Its just that I have this thick sheet of ice around my heart, this protective shield. I'm afraid to let anyone in even God. Or rather i dont really get how to let God in its so incredibly hard for me. I'm not in school, I cant drive so i can't go anywhere because i have no money to take the bus and I'm terrified of the bus anyway. Every time I try to pray better I get embarassed and scared and nervous. I'm not getting anywhere. Prayer is the key element and its my hardest element. And I really don't have any true desire to stop what I'm doing but I know I should. I should feel guilty but i don't, and I should really not want to do these things but I just don't even though I wish I did. I'm so far away from God now I feel almost no remorse, no guilt for what I've been doing. Its so hard. I WANT to feel that stuff! its a big part of being able to get over an addiction like this. I don't think i'll be able to feel more until i can talk with God more efficently, its just so HARD to talk to him, to communicate with him! i can't even communicate with people around me, not even m own family. And als I have noticed that before do and look at these things I usualy feel frusterated, or am i a bad spirit, or am sad, o or angry, etc. Sometimes I just do it to be rebellious, like I'm angry at God or something, or like I'm angry at everyone. Like my bishop gave a talk about the dangers of technology a few weeks ago, anyway right after church I went home and di exactly what he told us not to do. And i laughed about it at the time and didn't even give ita second thought. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me! NOTE: besides the things I mentioned here I have also took up masturating inside the church building in the bathroom, and i have sort of started skipping meetings in order to do this, and or just skip just because i fee like it. I'm terrifed of seeing my bishop, i've only talked to him twice within the last year. i just cant face him. I'm in SO much trouble.

I don't particularly like guns but I might get one for just in case. Its not the tot thing on my list though. My family hasn't started on our emergency kits yet and its getting on my sisters nerves and mine too so we're going to take action finally. I dont believe in the 2012 thing its pretty farfetched to me.