Lovemykids, I want to compliment you in your efforts to do what is right and draw closer to God. Faith is shown in our actions, and I want you to know that you do have faith. From the sounds of things something or many things in your life are beginning to overwhelm you. I'm in no position to determine what they are so I'd recommend some introspection. Increased stress sounds like it isn't going to help your situation, maybe there is something in your life that demands a lot from you but is not essential that you continue with it. Freeing your life of these types of demands could help ease this tough time for you. Most of all, I feel that you need hope. Hope is tied closely with faith and it is an expectation and trust in God's promises.
In Ether 12:4 we read: Wherefore, whoso believeth in God might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh of faith, maketh an anchor to the souls of men, which would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works, being led to glorify God.
Have hope Lovemykids, and wait for the Lord's promises for they are definitely worth it (see Mosiah 2:41).
