Hello everyone, I hope none of you find this unusual but I've been facing with feeling socially insecure for the past few years and quite recently I've been attacked because of it in high school, I do have many aquaintances I get along with but many actually notice how scared I am of rejection. This morning I prayed that I can feel socially confident and possibly find some more aquaintances today, and I believed god just how I do in every prayer I make, however today went just horrid... And it was all in one class. First the usual guy who made fun of my nose started talking about it so I told him ''Well what about your beard? Isn't that as unusual as my nose?'' So the guy next to him tells me that's a horrible comeback and they both laugh at me.. Then afterwards the teacher tells the class to get into groups, and because it's one of the two periods I have no friends in I can't really find a group, then some guy comes up to me and says ''Haha look at you, you're pathetic and I can tell you're a reject because no one wanted you to join their group''.. It's like he knew I'm socially anxious... What's bad is that his group is the only group I can join becasuse it has one free seat and I was forced to hear from the same guy ''Hey bud, we don't want you in our group, you're awkward''... Why doesn't god answer me? After today I don't feel stronger by god, I just feel like no matter how much I pray I won't be able to find confidence. I want to know how it feels to be normal, but my past has always been about rejection so I can't help but feel hopeless.