I just joined this forum today, but I feel that since this is the issue that pushed me into actually joining.
For years now, my family has been dwindling away in the church. First went my older brother. He stopped attending and ran away from home. It broke my heart when I realized how much I wanted a brother to serve a mission, and he wasn't going to. Then went my dad. He calls himself a "New Order Mormon," like the "New Order Amish." He reads all sorts of outside literature on Mormons which doesn't help at all. I see how much it has hurt my family in the years since my brother fell away, and now that my dad is gone, I can't help but hurt so strongly for my mom. She married my dad for time and all eternity, and if all continues down this path, she won't get it. And neither will I. I recently moved back into my parent's home only to find my younger brother dreading church, yelling as he gets ready about how he hates it and if my mom forces him to go he'll hate going for the rest of his life. And now, I feel like maybe, I might be falling too. My faith is fading as I feel more and more alone. I've relapsed into a few sins I thought I had overcome. The spirit does not exist in this house, and it's becoming harder and harder to hold on to it.
I just need some support. Some advice. Some...anything. I don't know what to ask. I can't even remember how to effectively pray. And I thought maybe someone could say something here.
