Please forgive me if I unknowingly post something that is considered taboo, or some kind of question that nobody asks because it's considered inappropriate, I mean no disrespect of any kind, and only wish to find some answers. I have not had contact with anyone from the church in a couple years, but some of the things I learned/discovered last time I did, still intrigue me, and I don't think I will ever be satisfied, or be able to move on until I find some decent answers. Please correct me if I am blatantly wrong, or don't have the complete truth, I ask based upon what I know, believe, or have been told. I don't know if there are any rules regarding who can know what, or anything like that, so if I do something wrong, please delete this thread and at least let me know what I did wrong. If any of this seems a bit far fetched, I apologize, I just need some answers, or some direction.
I was beginning to attend church again, and was spending some time asking questions to my bishop, and some of the things he and I discussed seem almost, contradictory, or even blasphemous to some of the main teachings and whatnot.
I asked him several questions relating to our main purpose in life, and why we were being 'tested' or 'prepared'. I told him, I wasn't going to accept that all those who 'pass' are going to live for eternity in bliss, and that God only wanted to spend eternity with the righteous of us. I don't believe that God would spend the time, energy, resources, effort on testing us, just to hang out with us at the end. Could he be preparing us for an even greater task? If so, why the need to overcome evil, desire, sin, unless there is that same, if not greater evils in the next task?
I asked him, why in my scriptures is there a copy of some papyrus showing something called Kolob, something about a governing body. Why would there be a need for a governing body? What the primary function of a government is?
I asked him why the devil, satan, adversary continues to go against God? I told him I wasn't going to accept a scripted 'misery loves company' answer, and that any being surviving thousands of years has by now amassed enough knowledge to understand that he has no power over God, and is destined to failure.
I asked him if God had parents.
Bare in mind, that it has been a couple years, so some of the things I remember him saying may be out of context. He told me, that not many people are going to end up in "outer darkness", and that who is to say another being won't use satan in the same regard that our God did. As per the reason of life questions, I remember what he said quite clearly, "isn't that a scary thought, that there could be a being of power similar or equal to that of our God, that is evil?"
Some of the things we discussed, while not confusing for me, seemed rather, well, like something I was maybe not yet ready for. I ceased going to church, and asking questions to him and the institute teacher, because I was afraid I was coming back to the church for the wrong reason. I didn't want to come back if I was only doing it for entertainment, as in, I find this sort of thing fascinating.
There is much more I would learn, but I want to do it for the right reasons, and no matter how much I pray to find out if God even exists, I get no answers that I can understand. Can anyone assist me?