My world just fell apart at 9:00 last night. I found out that my husband of almost 4 years posted an ad on craigslist for sex. I was out of town last week visiting my family with our 2 year old daughter. He sent and received explicit emails from women. He didn't have anyone come over but i feel as if I have been betrayed. If you knew my husband this would be the farthest action from your mind that he would do. He is so meek and kind and in general thoughtful and loving. I am 7 months pregnant. I now feel a range of emotions from anger to feeling insecure and as if I wasn't enough. I love my husband and I know he loves me. Its a long story about what brought him to post on craigslist and I won't rehash it but I do believe him. There is never an excuse for this but i know satan wants to destroy the family and what starts out as looking on craigslist for baby things for our son can make any man who is alone fall victim to curiosity as to what is under erotic services. We are going to contact our bishop and go through counseling. I don't know how I am going to make it through today or tomorrow. i guess I am looking maybe for advice or maybe just a place where I can vocalize my pain and heartache without invovling personal friends or family members which I don't feel like is a good idea. I feel like our marriage as I have know it for the past 4 years has died. Even if we are able to work through this it pains me to know that I will never have this innocence back that we once had. Im so devistated.
