Raggman84

I remember the days of being a teenager in JR. high and high school. There was the issue of being stuck in the middle of transforming into a man. All these various changes seem to happen so quickly. The problems with acne, mood swings, and the stress of trying to fit in. Along with this stress comes the added unfortunate reality that the public school system is designed for a true left brained early bird. Classes generally started around 7:30 a.m. During the first few hours of the morning most people constantly yawned as they slowly walked to class. The Lucky ones had P.E. in the morning. They could start the day with stretches, exercises and racket sports as they woke up for the day. For the rest of the students though the first hour of the day consisted of sitting in a rather quiet class room with a teacher who more than likely didn't major in the subject they were hired to teach. The worst teachers wouldn't teach at all but would instead just tell the students to read chapters in a book, memorize vocabulary and answer the questions at the end of each chapter. As the class worked the teacher would pretend to work while playing solitaire or some other computer game. The okay teacher would lecture from notes they prepared seven years prior when the school last updated text books. The awesome teacher actually did major in the subject they are hired to teach and has a passion for the subject. They do more than just teach from the book but bring in other examples. As they lecture they allow group conversation and participation to help students understand the subject matter. Every once in awhile there was an awesome teacher but for the most part the teachers weren't very good. Students had trouble with the required subjects for reasons that most of the teachers didn't actually teach. Aesa your son may not be doing well in school because he is a stressed out, sleep deprived teen who can't concentrate because he is tired and the teachers aren't teaching effectivily. When teachers don't teach only the left brained who are excellent at memorizing lists and facts will truly succeed.

JBS I know how that feels man. This is why so many general authorities of the church keep telling us single adults to not just hang out. In my Singles branch I have seen guys and girls who are constant companions to each other but somehow aren't dating. They sit really close to each other. The guy may even put his arm around her. To everyone else it looks like they are dating. However if asked if they are dating they will smile and say " Oh no she isn't my girlfriend we are just friends." Other guys won't bother to ask the girl out because of the appearance of a relationship that isn't really there. Even if it is known that a certain guy and girl aren't dating it would be awkward to date a girl who has a strong emotional attachment to another guy. The guy in this illusion of a relationship may have problems dating other girls because he seems so attached to a girl who he is apparently not dating. When a guy and a girl who are good friends find themselves spending a great deal of time together they should either consider themselves a couple or spend less time with each other. Otherwise they are wasting each others time and confusing everyone around them. JBS I wouldn't worry terribly about classes of society. You just need to find a girl who likes you for you.

That's cool. Most of my family that I'm visit live in or around Pocatello.

Well That's cool. I used to be a total night owl. I really can't get back into that old sleeping habit. I have to be awake and alert for when school starts up again. Although I guess It's okay for now. I'm on break right now. I will be going on a trip to visit some family in Idaho. Just as long as I'm reset in time for when I start working and school begins..

Yeah I promised my Journalism Professor who is also my advisor that I wouldn't do any more social anxiety experiments like this. Unless there is a festive reason to dress up then I will. Ultimately his concern was the people I would be interviewing. Getting interviewed for even a small publication is already weird enough. Having the reporter in a strange costume would weird them out even more.

I just got it from the Costume section from WalMart. It was $7 because it's made from Polyester. Although one day I would like to get a real old fashioned style top hat. Here is the other Costume I kind of weirded people out with. There were a few deaths in my family so to kind of show my emotion I created tears of Fire. The Jester hat has a switch on the inside, which make the bulbs at the end blink.

I come here off and on. Although of all the LDS forums I've belonged to this is the only one that is up and running with a bunch of conversation. Others have either shut down or people lose interest and stop posting.

So first is my Willy Wonka/ Mad Hatter look, which I am most "famous" for at my Community College. It started out as something I forced myself to wear just on the week of Halloween. Eventually I forced myself to wear my hat once a week. First it was Fun Hat Friday and then Later Top Hat Tuesday

I want to get into Journalism, which usually requires being outgoing. There are some positions that people can be a little less out going but I would prefer to become outgoing and have a more exciting position in the field of Journalism. I just reset my password for photobucket so I'll try to post some of the Costumes caught on camera

Being Energetic can be good though. I've been trying to loosen up and get passed my social anxiety issues. I have come a long way but I have much more to travel. I forgot my password for photo bucket. Maybe later I can post some pictures of some of the strange outfits I have worn to school. Since it's a Community College in the Seattle area no one was Terribly weirded out. Over all it was good to force myself to stand out a bit more and force others to give me a 2nd glance to make sure that they weren't dreaming.

I clicked on your profile it's really awesome and a little hypnotic. Yeah Techno Music is cool. I use to listen to it to zone out to write poetry. Of course this was when I needed to write for a grade. Now I write whenever I really feel the need. I would sometimes dance when No one was looking I take it you alter and create the techno tunes yourself eh?

That's cool. I'm cool with listening to music but I've never really been musically talented. When It comes to singing I will only do it when there are a bunch of other guys around who are also singing. I always joke that I have a blending Bass voice. Meaning that It kind of blends in with the rest but isn't meant to solo.

I think anyone can write poetry but it's just a matter of finding their own personal style. Honestly I kind of hated poetry until I took a poetry class in High School. I only took the poetry class because I knew the teacher and thought he was cool. I learned that Poetry and writing in general is a gateway to express my emotions. In fact in some of my sessions with my councilor we did some writing exercises. She told me that It was hard for her to get through to see the real me with the questions and answers. She could see in my writing that although I might play with words I wouldn't joke around with how I felt. At that point we started working on trying to break down the emotional walls so that we could find out who I really am underneath.

Not sure why the font changed at the end but it's all good. Here is the Poem I wrote after the relationship was over. fLying Singing Bird Look at that young singing bird singing in my tree Singing of adventures crossing great lakes and streams Those wonderful singing stories sound so good to me I spent much time planting gardens while listening to her sing I felt such joy I began to sing along with these joyful dreams We had great times singing away with bright glowing sunsets to end our days Look at those gusts of wind shaking leaves free Look at those branches snapping off my tree Look at that singing bird falling down to me She didn’t even try to flap those wings of hers That singing bird never took the time to learn to fly Sadly all those singing stories were nothing but lies Look at that singing bird walking down street Watch those crows and seagulls steal her lunch eat I throw out birdseed hoping she can eat Look at that singing bird walking up the street Look at that singing bird disappearing down the hill I wonder where she’s going without birdseed in her beak I sit all alone in a frozen winters garden without hearing a peep I can’t wait for that golden spring sun to shine I will watch yellow tulips bloom as the real singing birds land in my tree

Okay so here is the first poem. FYI I am a little bit color blind but it's not terribly bad. I just have issues with certain issues of purple, blue and grays. Calm Glowing Sunset in my Soul I do not know if the daisy in my garden Is purple lavender or blue Sadly I will never know with slight colorblind eyes What I do know is that I love spending time with you Seeing your sparkling green eyes shine As you laugh and smile the day with me When I see your smile I feel joyful When I look into your eyes I feel at peace When I hear you laugh I begin to laugh with you Whenever I am with you I feel a calm glowing sunset in my soul When our day is over I feel the glow slowly melt away As I look forward to seeing you again another day On days without sunsets My thoughts dwell on you greatly Wishing you were with me to share time once more