Soldier752

I'm 18 and been a member all my life, I haven't always been the strongest member but I still try sometimes. The thing is I feel at times God punishes me when I do something wrong. Whether its swearing, not going to church or seminary, not reading my scriptures but those aren't real big things. I manly feel this way because I look at porn and have sexual thoughts all the time. I've been trying for years to stop and I only look maybe once a month but I think about sex 24/7. I know I should stop and I say I want to but deep down I don't think I want too. I'm not a bad person or anything and I"m nice to people and liked(no one knows about this though) I'll never touch drugs or alcohol. I feel this way cause somethings have happened in my life that I feel punished for and it relates back to porn. I'm way worried that trying to find a wife God will punish me because of my sexual fantasies. I repent every morning and night for it and I sincerlly mean it. So does God not help people in their lives when it comes to stuff like this?

yes I've been a member all my life, 17 years now.

Please help me, I'm worried I'm going to hell for looking at porn and having sexual images in my head all the time, i repent everyday in my prayers but and I've tried for years now to stop but its hard but I am doing better, I don't do anything else thats really bad and I'm still a good person and I believe in God and the mormon teaching.

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