hi mike i was brought up in the church of england ,but to be honest i didn't really know anything ,then the church came into my life and as blessed me more than i can say .
as others have said give your self time to think and pray the lord will direct you ,you are a child of our Heavenly Father and he loves you ,i have depression and illnesses that sometimes are so hard to live with , and the world calls to me often but i know that isn't the answer and so i try to remain strong by reading my scriptures and praying ,i know its hard to change your life and it seems hard to give up things that are in the world a lot of us have done that ,but i haven't found ever in all my 30 years as a member one person who as said its not worth it, and i have met a lot of members , stick to our Heavenly Father he will help you know the truth ,and your life will be blessed.