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hi gwen thankyou for your advise i hadnt considered it could be hormone related and i appreciate your advise i will mention it to my gp when i next see him

To puf the magic dragon firstly let me say i didnt post my post for syphathy i did it for advise from anyone who as ever felt like i am. Secondly so what if i'm not very good at english grammer. Putting commas were they go and correct spelling is not something that makes me a bad person and who are you to judge, for one thing you know nothing about me or my curcumstances so what gives you the right to accuse me of being all the things you said i am. There is a well known saying that is if you havent got anything nice to say to someone dont say anything at all maybe you should consider this the next time you open your mouth or post a post there is only one person who is in a postion to judge and thats our heavenly father NOT YOU if you have never suffered from deppression or been around anyone suffering with it then it is in my opion that you carnt really coment on it finaly let he who is without sin cast the first stone

Thankyou funky town for your advise i really appreciate your advise and the fact that you spared me the time to understand what i am feeling i am going to go back to my doctors and ask him for his help again i understand that the slimming pills are going to make me put on more weight but your right i carnt go on like this anymore i have one more question for you this quite voice within can everybody hear it or do you need to have a special talent and how do you know whats your imagination or the holy spirit im glad to hear that im not the only one who feels confused and that other members will have experienced some of the feelings i am feeling because it means im not alone thankyou funky town your a great person to give advise

Thankyou for your advise my daughters are 17 and 13 and my sons are 7 and 6 i do love them dearly and i feel angry with myself that i would rather not be here i have spoken to my gp 3 times about how deppressed i feel and about how many a night i pray to god before i sleep asking him if he will take me back but then i wake up and it makes me feel one of 2 things if god was really there he would know how i feel and would let me go back to him and secondly if he is is true and loves me then he wouldnt want me to feel like this i have felt depressed lonely and that there is no porpuse to my life for a long time which is why i thought having my patriarchal blessing would make me see things diffrently my gp has put me on some slimming pills because i am desparate to lose weight he tells me if he gives me some anti deppressents they have side effects that will make me put on weight so he would rather not do that im so confused because i feel if i stay in the church i will be on my own for the rest of my life and i dont want that but on the other hand i feel loved by my new brothers and sisters because they are the only people in our life we have no one else and we live in a rough area where drugs and alchol and street crime are among us so a big part of me wants my children to be apart of the church so that they stay safe i have told my daughters that i am losing my faith and that im thinking of leaving the church but they begged me not to and they say that the lord does love me there are guys that ask me out but they want sex from me and if i stay in the church i carnt give them that so i feel i will be on my own for ever if i continue to be a member and i carnt face that fact i know people are telling me that if i dont find someone in this life then i will find someone in the next but i carnt understand why i have to be on my own here i really dont feel there is a porpose to my life other than cook clean and bring up children and as much as i love them im bored with that i would love some excitment in my life i hate to feel this deppressed and i wish i could just shake it off but its getting worse and im starting to get angry with god because he wont take me back.

thankyou for your message i'm feeling a bit down at the moment so its nice to meet a friendly member

I'm a new member of the church and myself and 2 daughters was baptized on the 8th of march this year. i feel very confused and i'm beginning to wonder if what i am doing is right i feel like i am at a cross roads in my life and i dont see a clear path i am a single mum and i feel lonely for adult company recently i asked the bishop if he could recomend me for my patriarchal blessing as i thought this would show me that our heavenly father is with me and he does have a plan for my life but when i had my blessing i was very disapointed the only thing i can rember about it was that our heavenly father said he wants me to teach the gosspile and to be a leader he said that he will bless me with the right words to say but the one thing that keeps going over in my head is our heavenly fathers advise to me on listning to the quite voice i pray often and ask our heavenly father for guidence but no matter how hard i try to listnen for answers i dont hear the quite voice so this as lead me to think that maybe there isnt a god after all or if there is he doesnt want to know me i was hoping for some direction but i dont feel i have it i am not clever and no way able to teach let alone lead i feel that my life is just a waste of time and i have asked our heavenly father if he will take me back to live with him but my prayers are not answered i tell myself if there is a god then he would see how lonely i am and how much of a strugle i am having and he would allow me to go back to him i also tell myself if we chose to come down here why when we ask to go back will god not allow us too i look at my life and although i have children i feel it is not worth while im bored and lonely and confused i feel there is not a possibility of me finding someone who will love me i tell myself the only way im going to be able to have a boyfriend is if im no longer apart of the church coz it would be to difficult while im a member as not only would i need to find someone who is happy to take on children but also that he must be a member and i find this impossible at my age of 40 my daughters dont want me to leave the church and i dont want to disapoint them i do love being apart of the church but im not sure if being there is the right thing for me unless i can get my faith back im so confused and i was wondering if there is any other members that have felt like this.

thats great southend is our ward and romford is our stake so ive been there a few times to watch the state confrences

hi begood2 thankyou for your welcome message was a bit confused with the bit about son to be though lol

Im new to the site and just wanted to say hello from uk :)