Hi!
I've been a member of the church throughtout my entire life, and despite having had hardships and even stepping out of the righteous path, I end up repenting and coming back.
I do have bad thoughts and stuff like that, but I try to stay away from them and to keep myself clean and safe.
But right now I'm very confused.
I'll try to explain my situation:
I live with my family, consisting of two siblings, both my parents and myself. We all are active members and go to church every sunday, have our family night every monday and so on. I'm really happy about those aspects of our family life. We "recently" added another member to our family, in a way. It's a girl from our ward who is my sister's age (they're about to turn 22, I'm 20).
She became good friends with my sister when we went to seminary, and the three of us got along pretty well. Unfortunately, four years ago their parents moved to a rural area, far away from her school, and she found it very difficult to go to school and was at risk of having to quit it. She told my sister about it, and she talked about it with my parents, and so she ended up living with us.
It was alright, and it tightened our bonds. Even I considered her my bestfriend and enjoyed spending time with her. We always were together at Institute meetings and dances, so you can get an idea of how I truly appreciated her as a friend and as a family member.
Sadly, it isn't like that now. This weekend I stepped inside my parent's room, and caught her engaging...a very intimate moment with my father.
Needless to say, I'm very heartbroken at the moment. I'm hurt because of my father's betrayal and also because of my friend, because I simply can't think of her as a friend anymore.
I have already talked to my father about the matter. He was very sad and begged me pardon. I still can't say I've forgotted about the matter, but I'm willing to give him another chance. He also promised me he would talk to our bishop about this, so things are more or less settled between us.
Nevertheless, it's not the case of my friend and I.
I can't talk to her. I can't joke with her anymore. She's still living with us, but I'm not sure if I'm okay with that anymore. To be honest, I'M NOT okay with that, and I think it's understandable taking on count what I saw.
But...I don't want to be mean. I don't want to be cruel. Kicking her out of the house will make her school life very difficult, and I'm well aware of that.
I kind of want to forgive her, but I don't know if I can. I'm so disappointed at her, I'm so hurt and angry at how we were so supportive towards her and she still was capable to do this...
I don't know what to do. All I know is I probably will have to take a sit with her and talk (she probably has the need too!), but I don't know what to tell her.
The atmosphere is horribly tense at home, and I can't bear with it anymore... I've prayed alot on this matter, but I still feel awful and confused on what to do...
I seriously don't know what to do, please give me some advice.
P.S. Please, excuse my bad english, it's not my first language and I don't get to practice very often