I am really considering a mission but I am torn. I've considered it for the past year but felt I needed to wait for something, I am not sure if it was maturity, education, money or hoping I would find a special someone. I am 22 and don't want to wait too long if I am going to do it. At the same time I have something inside me that is pulling me back. I know it is not possible for any of you to really know how I am feeling but at least maybe knowing others have gone though that internal battle and maybe knowing what got you through it would help.
I was dating a guy last year who I thought would be the right one for me, he wasn't. Now that I am over that I feel like there shouldn't really be anything holding me back, but there still is. I can't describe it any more than a feeling that I will miss something if I go. I guess I am questioning whether that is a feeling from Heavenly Father or the devil. I talked it over with my Dad who is a return missionary, he tells me it has to come from within. My bishop basically says the same thing. I have been avoiding going out on dates even because I am in limbo. I also have a chance to further my education. *pulls more hair out* Anyways, since this is an advice board .... any advice?
I am sure the answer will come in its due time, I am just wanting to make it happen sooner. :) I have been praying and fasting and studying, attending institute classes and of course church. Thanks ahead for any advice.