So.. I am a married gal in her 20s with two children. We moved into this nice neighborhood a few years back... I discovered everyone was SO nice! I didn't even realise it until much later, but I think I had my first encounter with the "holy ghost" while my children were taking classes at a neighbors house. When the classes were over I felt SO sad that I wouldn't be interacting with them anymore. I felt this sadness I could not explain. I think it was because their home was filled with the spirit looking back on it, and I would be leaving it.
At that time I still had no idea what mormon/lds was.
Somehow, it dawned on me that all these nice people were mormons! I had no idea! I soon began doing a little research on what exactly their beliefs were. Out of the blue one day I felt this urge to visit the temple nearby. I did and I met a sister missionary who I began corresponding with.
Now,let me say that I've been atheist for as long as I could remember. Not exactly by choice, I just was not raised with any religious influence at all. I had thought that when we died it was just like a computer being unplugged. However, I remained interested in learning more about this church.
So I've spent the last year reading bits of the book of mormon, watching mormon channel videos and even listening to the radio broadcasts.
I have just fallen in love with listening to the leaders of your church speak. Especially president Thomas S. Monson.
My special "treat" is just listening to general conference talks and the wonderful warm feeling I get is so addicting!
So, here I am very drawn to the church.. however I can't say I have much faith in anything. I know I have felt the spirit.. I am certain of it. Infact just today I watched the biography video of Thomas S. Monson and my entire body got the chills when he beared his testimony.
But when it comes down to what's in the bible... I am not sure I can take it literally. All that stuff is very new to me and I can't say I believe everything that's in it in a literal way.
So I have reservations about a few things.
The next problem is that my husband has absolutely no interest in religion. And I am OK with that. I believe he has his own path in that re guard. I have read some things online that say if your spouse is not on board, it is not a good idea to join. Seeing as we have children, that might complicate things. I love him and our marriage and that is the most important thing to me.
So, basically, I am confused. I feel so drawn to the church. I don't really have faith in much yet but I love reading scriptures, watching videos,and praying to heavenly father.
I am not sure if I should take this further or not. I have never been drawn to any religion before.. but something about the teachings of the church have my attention and I can't deny it.
