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I like the youtube videos Idea that would be fun! I really want a 9-5 because I am very serious about working out. My goal is to start doing ultramarathons so all my time when not working is used to workout. I am a member I was thinking about calling my bishop but am hesitant because every time I go back to church I feel like people try to manipulate me.

I just got back to denver and have looked in the sunday paper and craigslist with no luck. This economy is bad! I really need to find a way to make some money because my car is broken and I cant afford to fix it and I owe my parents money and have bills every month. I was hoping to get some fresh ideas talking to people.

hey so I guess il update. I hate coming back and reading what I typed. It makes me feel weak. I am doing a lot better now but still having a hard time. I managed to stay clean the last 4 days and even went to the gym today and worked out for 2 hours. It felt ok I am out of shape again. The reason I want to do the army is because I have dreamed since age 13 of just kicking major ass in the military. I will do it whether I go on a mission or not. The reason I thought about doing a mission is because I know god helped me stop the first time and I was an idiot for forgetting and going back to my old friends later even though I was depressed with my broken hand. So I know god is helping me again now as I have been asking a lot for it. I made a new friend yesterday. We hung out all day and had a pretty good time. I also got a call for a job that I applied for so I am hoping I will get hired. Its still really hard but I am pretty confident this second time around. I havent slipped near as far as I did the first time and I think the lesson will stick. I noticed today after working out that I started to get excited about making money again and actually going after goals which has been something I have not experienced in a while. Anyways I think that I was introduced to this for a reason because it broke me down and made me humble. It has tested me to the core and opened up my mind to god. I refuse to let this ruin my life, its an awful existence and I have a list of things I want to achieve.

People that hate bmw drivers. It is called the ultimate driving machine for a reason... because they perform really well on the road. Dont hate me because I just out drove you on the road. And no I am not one of those people that cuts everyone off only to slow down and turn right at the last minute. And the left lane is for passing not for driving exactly the speed limit alongside another car blocking the entire road. Some times people are in a hurry for a real reason like I need to take my dad to the hospital get off the road if I have to pass you on the right!

Try going to the gym. You will make new friends and I find it is one of the only times I am ever at peace. It is a healthy enjoyable thing to do and really releases a lot of stress and pushes out bad, negative feelings. It is a natural high and makes you feel great once you get into a good rythm. It is hard to get started but just do a little bit every day and you will have more positive natural energy than you probably have had in a long time. I used just this one hobby to completely quit cigarettes and heroin for 9 months it was amazing until I broke my hand and fell backwards again losing everything that had held me together. I am currently in the process of starting over again but I have made countless friends and huge strides in life just focusing on this one activity. Give it a shot!

Hi everyone my name is colton and I had been an inactive member of the church the last 5 years and am just getting back in recently. I am posting in the hopes that I will get some encouragement and advice. I hope nobody I know in real life will see this as it will really make me look bad. But any ways here is my dilemma..... I started out as a dumb teen partying and breaking rules etc. etc. Well it led me into a hell hole of heroin addiction over the last year and a half. I was 15 thousand dollars in credit card debt at 21 yrs old and seriously contemplating suicide with no friends, no money and living on the street. One night I managed to get my hands on a shotgun and loaded it and put it in my mouth ready to fire. Before I was going to pull the trigger I prayed to god and begged him for help if he was there. He answered my prayer and I felt the spirit come over me. Over the next few weeks I quit cold turkey and was in extreme pain and sickness until I wound up finding a job in Houston, Texas ( I am from Denver, Colorado). I moved to Houston after 2 months of being clean and began my new job and withdrew for a total of 7 months. It was the worst thing that happened to me ever but it shattered my reality and any premonitions I previously had. I am now a god fearing man. Well I broke my hand doing something dumb, swinging from a tree into a lake in Texas and had to leave my job and move back in with my parents which brings me to now 6 months later. Well the pain pills I took reignited my addictive nature and before I knew it I found myself back out on the streets looking to score. I went to my bishop and asked for help and he has recommended me go to 12 step and counseling. The way I asked for help is I told him I want to go on a mission to change my life I really do. I saw my younger brother go and it was amazing to see how happy he was. I disclosed everything I had done to my bishop, even robbing houses to support my habit and he gave me a time frame of 5 more months until I can go on my mission. I have made reconciliation with all the people I robbed and most of the things I have done. I just recently have been falling back into this awful addiction. So we come down to today, over the last few weeks I had realized I am too screwed up to serve a mission and went to enlist in the army. Well my bishop and stake president and parents have been really pressuring me and trying to help me so that I will be able to go in 5 months. I feel so torn by this I want to go but I absolutely cannot stick around here another 5 months doing nothing. I will fall completely back into my awful addictions, I have been giving it my best effort to clean up enough to get on some sort of a job whether it be mission or the army, whatever then I can improve from there and be away from any temptations. Well I was going over to the army office to get sworn in today when the bishop randomly called me in and asked me to go to his work place. I went in and he asked me not to make any big decisions and said we were going to work hard on getting me on a mission. Well I really felt like this might be a sign from god so I canceled my enlistment to wait it out and I guess go on a mission. I am just looking for advice, sorry for the long read I just feel torn up inside. I have been praying for help a lot but have not gotten any peace or direction. I dont know what to do. Even talking to the bishop and stake president I dont feel like they understand me, what I have been through and the extreme amount of pain that life is for me right now falling backwards again with absolutely no friends, no job, no money and my parents driving me nuts. I wake up every morning wishing I hadnt.