I gotta say I feel the same but just the other way around. I grew up with these beliefs, with the idea of getting married with a lds guy, ex missionary, etc, etc.. but it seems that none of the guys of my church look at me.. I'm indeed asking myself if I'm not that worthy, or perhaps I should send everything to trash and start dating non-lds guys which actually look at me and ask me out. I don't know.. I'm going through a difficult stage of my life in which nothing seems to make sense..
Lol, but my personal drama isn't important. I'm not who to give you advice about this. But well.. we both should have faith that things happen for a reason and the good one will come.. hopefully.