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Oh my bad. It's kind of a habit to say since most of my friends are chicks

thanks ladies

My husband and I got into a huge fight the other night......so bad that he's not talking to me[he's cooling off]. Ive been reading the book and i guess for some reason i had the urge to start from the beginning and read it again. I was seriously over-come by the spirit and it seemed like everything that he had expressed concern and said was correct. I feel absolutely horrid. That night he kept bringing up how i never seemed happy. I didnt understand how he could be saying such a thing,i was smiling,i had been smiling but after i read the first chapter again,it hit.......I was happy but i wasnt truly happy. My happiness came from things that were superficial,going out,partying,spending money,etc. The book had stated that to be genuinely happy you needed to be filled with the spirit and frankly until a few mins ago,i couldnt have told anyone the last time i felt the spirit. It became very apparent to me just how "unhappy" i was. I honestly disgraced myself,my family and everything i stood for to achieve temporary happiness and in doing so i pushed the wonderful man that had been by my side for almost 12 yrs away. my whole point in this post isnt for pity lol i needed to get this out,maybe someone out there has been or is going through this. i mean any kind word,helpful thought or even a word of prayer,scripture etc is greatly accepted. i have asked for forgiveness and i will patiently await a reply. thanks for reading ~Amy

My name is Amy. I have 2 kids and have been married to my husband for almost 5 yrs. We recently got sealed in the temple,to each-other and to our children. I was the greatest day of my life-by far. We've discussed pornography and stuff like that many times and ive made it clear [so i thought] that i dislike it GREATLY. In our temple classes it was brought up and discussed as well. Ive always been taught that its just as bad as fornication. Today i went to sign into my email account and my husbands was open instead of mine. in his inbox was a ton of messages from a dating site that he apprently signed up for and a porn site he signed up for. Im lost at what to do. Im hurt more than i am angry but i am both. I dont think signing up for either is temple worthy actions and i know if i bring it up to him all he will do is be angry that i "snooped" even though i didnt. It was just there,open for everyone to see. Am i wrong to feel hurt by this? Should i just ignore it? please help. any advice would be great!