Motherhood is a woman's divine calling. Intellectually I understand that. I see my older sister with her children and it can be very sweet; I love my nephews but I have absolutely NO desire to be a mom.
Shouldn't this be a natural desire?
I am single and am fine with the idea of marriage. The idea of spending eternity with a man I love sounds great; but I just am kind of repulsed by the idea of having kids.
Especially the process of pregnancy and childbirth. It grosses me out. And as cute as toddlers are I can't imagine being okay with being imprisoned in your home. It just sounds awful! People say that motherhood is about giving yourself over to selfless service... I can imagine that they are completely right; but how could I possibly want something that takes away all of my freedom! To not be able to leave your own house when you want to?
To be restricted in where you can travel, to never have "me time". the sleepless nights, the crying babies, annoying everyone around you.....
It just doesn't appeal to me.
I feel guilty!
And whenever I start to seriously date someone and there is talk of a possible future together...I have to be honest about my reservations regarding motherhood and no man wants a wife who doesn't want kids!
What can I do to appreciate motherhood? What can I do to desire motherhood?
