So, first off. Hello everyone. I was raised in the church and I am 18 years old.
For the past few years I have had no interest in going on a mission. And no real strong interest in the church itself. I didn't understand the laws and commandments, the scriptures, the meetings, the anything. So I just lived off of my own set of laws.
I slowly fell away.
I hung around some pretty bad people and never attended activities and that just made it worst. I seemed to be content with life this way. That I could make it on my own.
Anyway, I had one girlfriend (a member no less) and she was a horrible example to me. We ended up breaking the law of chastity a few times together before our relationship ended badly and I was in a complete slump for months. Then just a few months ago I had another girlfriend, and the I was breaking the law of chastity again. I didn't really understand it, nor care for the law. I thought it was unnecessary.
In the last month of our relationship something major happened to me and I completely fell apart. I was horribly depressed and I couldn't find meaning in life. That's when I started to come back to the church and I realized all of the mistakes I had made. I broke it off with her and kept myself isolated from things that caused me harm.
Ever since I did that it became instantaneously clear what I needed to do. That I needed to go on a mission and stay strong.
But now I'm realizing that it would probably be appropriate to confess, and it's freaking me out.
I just want to know what I should expect, and what I should prepare for.
I also was wondering about confidentiality and if this will be something that will be between me and the bishop and stuff like that.
Anything helps.
That's it for now. Thank you.
