Hello,
I'm not sure how to exactly put this:
Basically I am suicidal.
I'm not very sure how to cope anymore. God isn't answering prayers. I'm so very lonely and afraid. I have no family who bother with me.
I joined the church a few years ago but quickly became inactive. Recently I came back after searching for a long time for the answers.
I am not very confident and therfore do not speak to others. I think I'm quite awkward to be around.
I recently lost my job and since then I have been doing nothing. I've grown apart from every friend I ever had because of my confidence. I do have friends but I'm not close to them at all.
So since I lost my job I feel so low. I'm in so much debt, I'm crying out to god every single day but I get no answers, nothing changes.
i spend my day sleeping or crying. Everyone is after me for money. I have stopped going to church and now its December I am dreading spending christmas alone once again.
Right now the only option I feel is to end things. God isn't helping me. I don't know where he is.
I typed in a few questions about my situation to google today and came across this site.
I am so scared
Thanks for listening.