So, I just became a member here today, I have written this as a blog entry, but I would also like a "discussion" about it.
Hope you will be gentle with me, I think that our Heavenly father tries to tell me something, like I got a new testimony that I need to put my act together and do something.
Well, here is my blogentry:
I was so happy when I back in 2008 found the church, I was baptized and I moved to Utah to study at BUY. I found out that I needed to divorce my husband, I was not in love with him, heck he didn't turn me on, and I find that very important. I also knew that my biggest wish was to find another member of the church, a man who was strong in faith and with whom I could practice family prayer. However, things didn't turn out that way, I went back to Europe, got my divorce and, tadaaaa fell in love with a non member.
I had some bad experiences when I moved back in my new church, and I actually stopped attending to sacretmeeting before I met my boyfriend. The last sacretmeeting I went to the speech was about not beeing just a "sunday" mormon, and I felt so bad, because that was what I had become.
Now I have been away from the church almost a year, I can feel I miss it more every day, but I am not following the word of wisdom with chastity, and it is just very hard. I love my boyfriend, but I am afraid that he will never marry me, and I love the church and I am afraid that I can never go back.
Marie
