I've been a member of the church all my life.
For a while I've been a member of an online message forum containing members from around the world, most not being religious. I've been okay with the difference, in fact I've enjoyed being able to explain gospel topics to those with questions.
However, just recently, some of these more anti-religious people have started to make me question the church. I know that you shouldn't be involved with anti-religious topics, but in a way, I never got into them, they got into me.
The main problem I had was accepting that I'm not brainwashed. Many of the members of this forum had started to convince me that the things I've grown up with are wrong, incorrect or ignorant and sheltered. I know not to believe everything I read, but some of their arguments seemed to make sense.
I talked with the bishop about it and he helped me to feel better. However, I still have a bit of their doubt in my mind.
The biggest problem is when I announced how I was going to watch General Conference and hear words from the Prophet and other leaders. Someone stated "at least, that's what they say". I know that you have to have faith in order to really "survive", and I do. I want to have faith. But I've started to feel torn apart a little as I ponder if the church is true.
The concern I have is that, if you think about it, if God is real, then why does he allow so many churches which don't teach all of the correct truths? Why can't the true church be the only one to exist?
Also, knowing this, of course anyone can claim to have revelations from God. How do you know that the Prophet truly is a Prophet of God?
I've grown up believing, and have been told it's just to brainwash myself.
I'm starting to question how legit this all is.
I do want to believe, but I've been slowly convinced as to why I shouldn't.
