So my boyfriend Cory left for the MTC 3 months ago tomorrow. It's been good, we've been writing every week and the letters have been 10x better than I'd ever imagined they'd be. But it's been tough... I really miss my best friend. I knew I'd miss him, I was prepared for that, the hard part has been trying to find a balance between dating other people (which we talked about me doing so that Im not sitting around wasting time waiting for him. He wants me to have a life while he's gone) and staying emotionally available for him. I have a hard time finding it fair to agree to go on dates with other guys because I dont really feel its fair to have a guy pay for a date, and more importantly have hope that it will turn into something when Im very very emotionally attatched to my boyfriend on a mission. But on the other hand I would really like to go on dates with other people. I mean, I want to have fun over the next two years, I know it would be stupid of me to put myself on hold for two years. I know that theres always the possibility of it not working out when he gets back. I do feel very confident in our relationship since we're a little older than typical missionary couples (Im 24 he's 26), and I stay very busy with my job and my ward is very small so I dont have a that many chances to meet other guys, but since its a small ward now that Im technically single a lot of the guys have tried to swoop in i guess you could say. So how do I go on a fun date and not feel (1) guilty for feeling like Im leading a guy on, and (2) guilty for dating other guys while Im waiting but not officially waiting for my missionary? This is much more difficult that I imagined. Ive never done this before, I thought I was past the age of having the problem of losing a boyfriend to a mission! jk But really, Im confused.
