Hello! This is my first real post here, but I felt like it was important enough to post. Hopefully I can get some advice on this, even though I'm very new here...
I received my call in early June to the Brazil Goiania mission! I am really excited to serve the Lord and the people of Brazil, I truly am.
But I am also very nervous. I received my call about 6 months before I report to the Brazil MTC (on November 23). At the time I was just so happy and excited, I didn't even think about leaving in November. But now, as the time soon approaches...I am so scared. Scared to leave my family, my friends, and everything I've known my entire life. I just don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I'll be able to handle it. The other night, I just completely broke down as I thought about being in a different country for two whole years, unable to talk to the people I love. I just sat and cried. Whenever I think about leaving, I get really anxious and literally start shaking and my heart starts pounding and I start breathing faster.
And it's not even to the two month point yet. I still have about nine weeks till I fly out. I can't even imagine how scared I'll be once it hits November 1st. Thinking about how scared I'll be by then makes me even more scared now...
I just don't know what to do.
I attended one year of college, so I have a year of experience away from home. But I was still able to call and text my friends and family and I was able to visit home every so often. I won't be able to do that on my mission...
I pray daily, multiple times, asking Heavenly Father for comfort. Asking for the Spirit to be with me and to calm me down. I read the scriptures, especially the Book of Mormon, and study them intently, looking for answers. But I still feel so scared, so nervous, so inadequate...if I'm already feeling these emotions, how will I be able to be a successful tool in God's hands? How will I be able to bring the message of the restored Gospel to the people that need it most?
I'm sorry for rambling and venting. But I really need some advice and some guidance. Anyone who has experienced this and is willing to talk to me about it...I would appreciate it. And any advice or anything from anyone else would be appreciated as well.