JTiberiousKirk

My father is in the 2nd Quorum of The 70; I've never asked for help from him. I never will. I can't stand nepotism. I have made my way in the world for more than 20 years without help; its not pride, its because I am capable of providing for my self and being self-sufficient. Talking to my ward, stake and area authorities, I have simply become disheartened; the only time "they" care is when a "Molly Mormon" or "Returned Missionary" ask for help; I am desperate for that level of care, even if that help is nothing more than a kind ear and strong shoulder to cry on. Sometimes, oftentimes, I just wish I hadn't been born. No family means no life worth living.

I get screwed with a lot. I've been been the subject of rumors, lies, and outright hurt by several members of my own ward for no other reason that I'm divorced; my response has been resounding silence to their hurtfulness, at least in public. It hurts my feelings when people talk about me; I try to ignore them, but its so painful I just don't want to go to church any more. I don't get any support form the EQ or HP presidencies; the bishopric ignores me, even though the Bishop is my home teacher. What do you do? I've going inactive; I don't want to be - I love to go to church. But I can't go and not be treated poorly. What are my real choices?

Howdy!