My name is Richard Hawkins I am from the UK, I have been a member of the church for 6 years and was diagnosed with epilepsy about 8 years ago. I am a very shy and reserved person and have always found church very difficult as i am not very comfortable in social environments. This has resulted in Sunday being the most lonely day for me, sitting alone with no one saying more than an unfeeling "how are you?" often not waiting for my reply before moving on. Due to my epilepsy and the distance to my ward (15 miles) or my stake (50+ miles) I am unable to attend activities and have never been home taught in all the time i have been a member. My present home teacher is at church each week and is always too busy with family to even speak to me.
That first paragraph may have seemed like a bit of a rant but it was something i had to make clear at first, in case people wonder why i might seem so down. My faith is strong but i am at my wits end concerning the other things in my life. I know this is not the best introduction and this area of the forum is not really the place for answering such concerns but i felt i should introduce myself thoroughly.
As people maybe able to tell from my Thread title i am a quite a geek and proud of that, I enjoy movies, programming, gaming, modding. I collect swords and antiques and have a wide range of hobbies,etc which i do to keep me busy during the day while i search for a new job.
