zombiemommy

So I am not sure if you are still reading up on this post but I thought I'd add my two bits sense I am in the heat of PDD myself. This is my 4th baby and the first time I have ever really experienced it this bad. I love that all you expressed are things I too have felt. Its a nice reminder again that we aren't alone. One thing that has helped me through the past and now is something a councelor told me. She said that through times of trial we need to stop expecting so much of ourselves. That we need to start small. Start allowing yourself to feel proud of yourself for just getting out of bed and meeting the physical needs of your baby. Start acknowledging EVERY little thing you do each day and praise yourself for it. I started to feel better each day in realizing that even through all that I was going through I was always doing something and it made me want to do more as each day went on. We feel like failures when we compare or have such high expectations. Right now is a time to be gentle withourselves. The Lord is, Satan doesn't want us to feel good so he will use anything he can to take advantage of this time so build your wall of protection by reading scriptures, prayer and for me keeping yourldsradio songs playing all day helps me function better. The Lord sent his son to experience ALL pains of the earth. When we feel like our husbands don't get it, or friends don't HE does. Kneeling in prayer and expressing EVERY pain, guilty feeling, fear etc is the way we utilize the atonement. O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear, All because we do not carry, Everything to God in prayer! Now, its easy to say these things but putting it into action is the next step. Sometimes day by day, sometimes minute by minute we will survive by prayer! Good Luck, your not alone. (I have 4 kids all under 5, one who is autistic, and I am also in healing mode from my marriage falling apart. I'm trying to put the peices together while fighting PPD with a two month old, 2 yr old, 3 yr old and 5 yr old....WITH all the weight on my body (use to be skinny, had kids am now chubby) that keeps me even further in depression...but like the other reply said "This too shall Pass" )