AnaMarzen

Haha! Well I hope I don't smell like fish! She's just saying that I smell sweaty. Which makes sense, I guess. I mean, I'm almost 500 lbs for Pete's sake! I sweat pretty constantly... :/

...I'm just finding out now that I have a weird smell to me... lol I don't smell strange... I don't think... But that's what my sister is saying. Jeeze...

Yeah, things aren't great for me right now. But that's okay. So here's what I have ahead of me today: Not going to be easy, considering I get light-headed every time I bend over! lol But my mom and my sisters are going to help. I just hope they keep the judgment to a minimum. My sisters have been joking about it a little, which makes me uncomfortable. But I need the help. And I made sure to empty out all of my fast food wrappers out of the trash can! lol

Thank you Nadia! Yes, I know my life is a mess and it reflects in my health. Just today, I didn't wake up until 1:30 and I went straight to the Wendy's drive through. BAD! lol Other than that, I've been sitting on the couch all day and eating leftover cake. But I can feel that I'm ready for a change. I don't want anymore lectures from my sister! It sucks to be disappointing her. I can tell that my lifestyle and size worry her and my family. Other than that, my apartment is a mess. My family is actually coming over today to help clean it out. My mother made some off-hand comment about the smell yesterday and it nearly broke my heart. But anyway... Thank you for all of your advice, everyone. It means a lot. :)

Thank you!!!

I messaged you!

Well thank you.

Point taken! I've been the butt of many jokes throughout my life, and I must say that it discourages me from going out most of the time. I am kind of funny in appearance, and I know that. I'm an easy target for the fat jokes and the stares. Thanks for all the replies and advice people!

Thank you for the kind words. :) And yes, I definitely need someone to keep me accountable! lol I fall back into terrible habits, very easily. I know my sister is going to start walking with me and that will help a great deal. As far as the mental and physical part, it's funny... my mind doesn't feel too sharp, ya know? I just feel a little... slow, for lack of a better word. lol So I'm sure that once I start eating fresh food and I get moving, my mind will perk up too. :)

Wa wa waaaaaaaa.... LOL!

Ah, I see. Sounds like a fascinating read though. And it's okay, I have thick skin (literally and figuratively LOL!)

It's funny how that works, huh? I can see now that I am 100% addicted to fast food, soda and high fructose corn syrup. The stuff is seen as "gross" to most people but I swear, it's like crack to me! lol

Aw come on! Maybe I can kill him with kindness.

Very true, Anne. I need to deal with this now. I'd hate to be bed-ridden in 10 years from now.

She thinks that it would be too difficult for me, at my current size, which I agree with. Plus, can you imagine what Jillian would do to me? lol She'd tear me apart!