This is not a gospel specific subject but it's something I desperately need some advice or insight on.
I have began my first year of teaching at an inner city, very difficult school. I was hired to teach fourth grade and I literally had the class from heck, every teacher and faculty member in the school agreed. I worked my butt off every single day. I came to school early and I stayed late putting in hours and hours of extra work. I spent tons of my own money buying supplies and setting up the classroom. However, it was hard, the class was horrid and every single strategy of mine failed.
One of our kindergartener teachers took a job at another school. Our school, because of enrollment numbers, was unable to hire another teacher. We had one girl who was teaching first grade. She was an emergency hire, and this was counting as her student teaching. She was given a retired first grade teacher to help her set up and get her class going.
When the kindergarten teacher left, this girl was moved to kinder because she was endorsed. My principal switched me to first grade and the 3rd, 4th, and 5th grade classes have been rearranged and things are a mess.
I'm not upset by the switch. I LOVE first grade and have always wanted to teach it. However, I felt like the biggest reason I was switched is because I couldn't handle the fourth graders. My principal explained this wasn't necessarily the case. She says I'll do better in first grade and these changes needed to happen. Sure. It still hurts.
So I am switched to first, still expected to write sub plans for my fourth graders while they sort out the new classes. However. I am not teaching. The obnoxious old woman hired to help the emergency hire girl is now put in my classroom and she is the teacher. I am sitting back for a week or more and watching her teach my class while I 'ease' into the position. The kids are familiar with her- however, they like me and trust me and are very resilient. I've sent out a letter to parents explaining the switch. I am ready to teach.
I hate sitting back and not being able to do the job I was hired for. I hate watching this emergency hire take over her own class, while I, who has already student taught in the first grade is taking the back seat. This woman treats me like a little kid and is constantly correcting me, repeating things I already know or explaining basic teaching strategies. I know she is trying to help me. It makes me feel worthless, belittled and like I've been punished. I feel like the school doesn't respect me. She goes to all of our team meeting and talks for me and is always refering to 'our' classroom. I am the teacher. I also feel like I could do a much better job, I have to refrain from butting in on her unorganized and ineffective lessons.
I know this is silly, but should I have any right to feel this way? I don't like confrontation, it's often gotten me into trouble. How can I go about explaining my feelings and frustrations without looking like a whiny brat?