Hi everyone,
I was baptized as a LDS several months ago. It seems that shortly after I was baptized I started having doubts. I was an Atheist before my baptism, through the missionaries I started to feel the spirit and everything was great. Unfortunately, like I said I started having doubts. My wife and I would talk about the Church often even though she never believed it, she supported me. The more we talked the more I started to feel less devoted. When I was called upon to homeschool I felt as though I would not be a good teacher, because my faith was weak. I stopped going to Church shortly after.
For the past few months I have been questioning what life is all about. I am still confused about the whole matter but I feel there must be something. I still have a tiny bit of faith in the Church. I will often go to the Book of Mormon and try to harness that faith, but it just does not seem to be working. I thought perhaps having Mormons to talk to would make it a bit easier, so I registered an account here. I've posted here before, but I forget what user ID I had and the password.
I would love to speak to the missionaries but I feel guilty. I feel as though I let the Church down. The last time I saw them I told them that I did not believe anymore. I don't want to burden them anymore. I feel a bit foolish going back into the Church after I professed my faith, got baptized, and then shortly after left it. I don't know, I am a bit lost right now but as I said, I still have a bit of faith that the LDS is the one true Church.
Thank you for listening to me ramble :) Writing this actually gave me a bit more faith.
