I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years, he was born in the church but inactive all his high school years, when I met him I brought him back to church but he sill had the same mentality, we fell in love and started doing things that weren't right. We didn't have sex but we kept doing sexual things. Later in our relationship we wanted to get serious with the gospel so we started going every Sunday, we confessed our sins, we were better... but then one day we fell into those sins again. Then we confessed and everything was fine again. We were doing fine for a while then we fell into it again as we became inactive for a while, I once again decided to confess and our bishop was really understanding, he gave me 4 months to repentance process and gave my boyfriend 6 months because right now we're both preparing for a mission, it's been three months clean and just last night we fell into it again! I feel so horrible, I feel like I don't deserve to be forgiven, I'm so embarrassed, I'm so scared to confess because everyone knows I'm planning to serve and I'm scared that the mission will be delayed, I'm also scared of what will happen with my relationship, we both plan on getting married after our missions but I know that the way we're doing things isn't right, I need help and I want to know if there's anyone who has been in this exact situation because I honestly feel like I'm the only one on earth dealing with this..