Updating for anyone wondering.
After prayer and study, I have decided to return and I am attending the Community of Christ church. For now it feels right. I want to be part of Christ's church so badly that I want to be baptised, however, since I was baptised in the Methodist church, I am afraid of mistaking my feelings again. How will I know when it is really really the right church? I don't want to be a faith hopper. So at 42 years old, I am going to church and my kids are going with me. My husband does not have an interest in organized faith right now, but he is welcome with us when he chooses. For now I have peace.