I’m not a native speaker so if my English isn’t good, Please have some patience. Thanks. I live in Davis county, Utah. My neighbor who is White and from South has been ignoring me for years. When I saw her in a store, I wanted to say hi but she just ignored me. I was naïve enough to think, she didn’t see me etc. It happened all the time. Funny thing is in public (like neighborhood block party etc), she said hi etc. It was weird but I didn’t care much. Her daughter left flyers for babysitting on my porch this summer. Even I don’t like the neighbor; I didn’t want to be same person so I tried to be nice her daughter. Her girl didn’t have cell phone, so I sent a msg to the neighbor Fb but sure enough, she ignored me. I was pretty mad. Facebook shows when people check your msg or not. She checked but she just didn’t do. And she advertised about her girl’s babysitting on RS fb page. What the heck?! I was super mad at her so I sent her another fb msg. I told her that ‘why are you doing this?’, ‘are you racist something?’ ‘Gospel doesn’t teach like this’ etc. She totally ignored me again. I started to have a depression. It became pretty serious. RS president found out I have a depression and tried to help me. I told her about what happened with telling her the name. She was nice to do things like find a doctor for me etc. I still have hard time; I decided to tell her about who the neighbor is. RS president said “You might offend her first”. “She is nice person, don’t give her more stress” etc. Later I found out the neighbor’s son had drug problem and her oldest daughter got divorce. So RS president knew about it and worried about HER. I was suicidal and she knew about it. But she still worried about the neighbor not ME. At the time, I felt like why I’m here. No one treat me like this before. Maybe I should be out of my family’s life and they’ll have better life etc.. It started because of her. And RS president talked her. She said she didn’t do anything wrong, so she ignored me. What? Every year she hosts charity party for poor people. It makes me laugh about it. I think she wanted to show off people how nice she is. I don’t go to church because I don’t want to see her face. She is so hypocrite. When she talked about LOVE others, it made me mad so much. I can’t talk about this in my neighborhood. I tried without telling name, people said they don’t want to involve it. I feel so lonely. If I didn’t try to be nice, If I was just like her. I won’t her this much. What should I do?
