lostinaz39

Thank you to everyone that replied, you are all right. I guess I just need to work on my own personal testimony and I think things will fall into place as I do that. I guess maybe I'm just lacking a strong testimony of the gospel. I've grown up in the gospel so it's always been there, this is the first time I've ever really wondered if anyone would even miss me if I left or how my life would change. Books, I am looking for anything to help strengthen my testimony....

A year ago we moved to a new ward, I have gone to church a hand full of times because I don't feel welcomed. No one has called me and I have gotten 2 visits from VT. I am not sure where my testimony is. My daughter was diagnosed with cancer at 3 months old (shes just turned 2) and I think I am still carrying resentment for that trial. I do want to come back into the church and get back into the temple. Any advice on books (other than the BOM) to help get me there?