Satan is after you because you are going to do powerful things when you serve a mission. We who read this can tell you are sorry and repentance starts in your heart. So speak frankly with your bishop. Do not be alone with a female again. Don't let a day pass without praying many times a day or reading your scriptures. It's the adversary that wants you. The scriptures warn us of that repeatedly. Be humble regardless of the consequence. No matter what you choose, this life will end and you will have decided our eternal destiny. You can have joy forever if you can fight sin with righteousness here. We all have to repent daily. Stick to it. Set limitations for yourself so you can't fall again. We'll be praying for you to have the strength.
