Allons_y

I haven't seen that therapist in 7 years. We moved shortly after this conversation. Note: when I said "a good bishop" I meant any worthy bishop following the spiritual promptings that are sure to come to him as a steward over the congregation. By far most of the bishops I've spoken with privately were good bishops. .. I'm definitely not grading them on a curve. One of the biggest things that has kept me from talking to my Bishop; the man I met, was a Bishop ?. I have had a LOT of bishops since then, some of them have been amazing but I'm not sure I can ever trust one with my own emotional and spiritual health ever again.

My husband and I have been married for 15+ years. We have 4 children. We have struggled our whole marriage. Not with each other but with life. Jobs, school, money etc. I think all this struggle is my fault. 10 years ago we had 3 kids, the youngest was 6 months old. My husband had just graduated and gone to the other side of the country for a job. I was left alone with the kids for a month to pack up and get ready to follow him. I was lonely. I met man online and met him a few times in person. There was very inappropriate conversation and touching. When we moved, I told my husband about the man but not about the things we did. I never talked to a bishop about it. 2 years after that I told my therapist about it and asked him if I should tell my husband. He said no because that would only hurt him. To this day, I have not said a word about it to anyone else. I am disgusted with myself for my actions and can't even comprehend why I did it. Now here we are. Things keep happening. Nothing ever goes our way. I think it's my fault. Am I being punished. Do I need to tell him? Or the Bishop about something that happened so long ago? I know it will change everything if I tell him. He already struggles with me because of my mental illnesses. I don't know what to do.