Hello, this is my first post here in these forums. I have been seeking some help with this exact problem. And it is a problem. So much so that I have left the church in order to preserve my marriage. It weighs on my heart though. But there is no way I would be able to be a part of the church and stay married happily.
I feel as though I walked away from the flock...into the darkness...and into our doom.
By the way, we were converts. And frankly, there were many, many things we were not told before we joined the Church. It might have prevented us from joining the Church and therefore being held accountable to higher standards we were not going to be able to uphold.
The way my husband sees it, some of the doctrines are man-made and misguided. I see them as being true, but alas, too hard for us, lowly and unworthy, to be able to live.
It is sad, sad, sad for us. Why are some more worthy than others? Why do some find it so easy and others so hard? Why were we born with certain natures? I mean we are all spirit children of God, aren't we? Why didn't we come out the same? Why do some of us have weak characters and others strong?
In any case, we have been through the roller-coaster of conversion. We made it to the temple and were sealed. He fell away and I stayed. He came back, wavering...and then we learned that many things we were doing render us impure and unholy. That was it. He gave up trying.
I know I am not supposed to leave him nor do I wish to do so. But he does not want me to follow the doctrines of the church.
Is there any hope?
